Because your friend turned out to be a jerk but you still feel bad about not being able to protect him anyway?

[Just. Clarifying that they're actually on the same page.]

And no, not really? That's actually super sad even if it happened to someone like you. But I am pretty sure that working for a demonic smokeman and doing drugs isn't actually going to help in the longrun, because Mister Smoke is obviously going to do the same thing your other friend did sooner or later?