[very quietly:]

. . . He's not a bad person. Sometimes, you just mess with things bigger than yourself and it. [Amanda pauses, like she's having trouble trying to say this.] It messes up other people's lives. Their entire lives just become horribly, intrinsically intertwined with something bigger than them and -

[She just stops. If she keeps going, she'll have to admit her whole life was fucked over by the very thing she protects.]