...I'm starting to think that. [He sighs] I'm starting to get worn out by all this, I don't know what to do, and it doesn't seem like anything's going to get any better.

How can someone just keep hanging on in a place like this?

[He's not hopeless yet, but yeah, it has become an uphill battle to try to keep his optimism afloat. He's more than willing to keep fighting for as long as he can, buuuuut yeah, the murdergame has done quite a number in his formerly unshakeable optimism]