Week 4

[grimgrinningghosts]

[Two more people died this week. Two children. And they died because of a freak accident. Despite all your protests, Randall refused to let Jane get away despite being innocent.

But there is a tiny ray of hope now, which comes in the form of the mirror. Now that the mirror is public information, you can see people you care about, even if they are dead and trapped in hell. Not only that, but you now now that someone is trying to save you all from the predicament that you're in. And this time there's a good chance that he won't turn out to be a heartless mass murderer!

Still, the ideas for the plan are vague and you have no idea when you will actually get out. It's hard to keep up hope when your only chance of living might still end with you horribly killed, isn't it?

At least you have a new floor and the ability to wash your clothes now.

26 guests remain.]

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[kickbuttseatnuts]

[oh we haven't even begun on feelings]

But you... like... me?

[There's a bit more emphasis on that word than she might expect.]

[astronomics]

... yes. I do.

[ She closes the door and puts on a Concerned Face. ]

Is everything okay?

[kickbuttseatnuts]

Y-yeah. [No.] it's just...

What- what is it? About me? Is it- I mean- what is it you... like?

[astronomics]

[ ... ah. She might not be great at feelings, but Jyn can read into that just fine. ]

I know I haven't... known you for very long, exactly, but you're kind, and you're funny, and I believe completely that even if it hasn't always... worked out the way you want it to, you're a good person who tries her best to do the right thing.

[kickbuttseatnuts]

[She leans against the wall kind of exhausted already.]

I'm.

What if I'm not good? What if I'm... bad?

[astronomics]

Well... what makes you say that?

1/2

[kickbuttseatnuts]

I-I mean, I mess up a lot and-and I tried to take over the world and I hurt-

[She cuts herself off and. Kind of slumps her shoulders.]

[kickbuttseatnuts]

[It wasn’t really lying, she had told herself. Not really. And it clearly made them happy. They had a superhero here. A big strong hero. It wouldn’t be right to take away happiness. Right? And the bio had filled out information that technically correct and it would just be a hassle to note any mistakes.

And so Squirrel Girl nodded her head with the things people said or worked around certain phrases and questions or just chose not to make certain corrections. And it was fine because it wasn’t like she knew these people very well so there was no need to get personal. It wasn’t really lying. It wasn’t!

But then there was. A woman. A very nice amazing woman with this cool air around her and a radical jacket and this. This smile. This stunning smile that felt like watching a sunrise over a dark night. She barely knew it but she liked it. A lot. And it was all just so beautiful and worth so much more than her. Even if it was a temporary sunrise, even if it falls apart or even if one of them dies...

Would a real hero lie to that?]

What if I... wasn’t... Doreen Green?

[astronomics]

[ well that's. sure something. Jyn's expression is. Neutral. She can't pretend it doesn't hurt, but. ]

Then... I'd ask who you really are.

[kickbuttseatnuts]

I'm... sort of... a clone?

[astronomics]

A clone. [ Rubs her fucking temples, and because Star Wars Clones... ] Tell me you're not ten.

[kickbuttseatnuts]

I mean, it's more of a duplication machine so I should be 21?

[astronomics]

Okay, that's... better, you don't work like Kaminoan clones. Alright.

[ A breath. ]

So you aren't Doreen Green. Do you... have a name of your own, then?

[kickbuttseatnuts]

We- Doreen and I- decided I could go by our middle name. Her middle name.

I'm Allene.

[astronomics]

Allene. Alright. So why did you... pretend to be her?

[kickbuttseatnuts]

I-I dunno. I was kind of in jail before this and at first it was like "hey it's nice to not be surrounded by people who hate me!" An-and then I thought, well, if my sister was here she'd tell me to be an inspiration and help people out. And I thought maybe Noby and Mabel and Jane and the others wouldn't be able to relax if they knew, uh. That I tried to take over the world and all. [That Negaduck wasn't the only super villain.]

And I.

I just wanted to be Squirrel Girl again.

[astronomics]

[ ... ah. ]

This would be the... trying to take over the world thing, right?

1/2

[kickbuttseatnuts]

Y-yeah.

We were a team for a while. Doreen and I. I'm not evil. I was so happy to be alive with someone like me, who had the same experiences and memories as me, but respected me as myself.

And then- I told you about the whole. Friend died, kinda lost it part? Chompsky was this... wonderful squirrel and he was just dead on the road while humans kept driving by without a care in the world and Doreen said there was nothing we could do but-

[kickbuttseatnuts]

[She cuts herself off.]

S-so yeah. I tried to overthrow humanity and put squirrels in charge cause I couldn't handle my grief.

Whoops?

1/2

[astronomics]

[ Jyn pauses for a long few seconds, thinking. ]

Before this conversation goes anywhere else, I'm angry you lied to me. I understand why, I think, but I'm angry about that.

[astronomics]

... that said, Allene.

[ A breath in, a breath out. ]

You said earlier that... superheroes and supervillains change sides. So - and please, answer this honestly... is the you I've been talking to... you?

[kickbuttseatnuts]

That's- that's fair, I'd be worried if you weren't honestly...

[She swallow.]

...Yeah. I... don't think I've done anything I wouldn't already do. I didn't tell anyone else about the, uh, big crimes. I tried to be as honest as I could be without giving myself away.

[Especially with Jyn.]

[astronomics]

Then...

[ Jyn sighs. ]

I know a lot about grief. I... everyone I've ever been close to before coming here is dead. And I can't imagine it would have done much to keep my reactions to that grief healthy if I had superpowers. I can't say I agree with trying to take over the world, but... as long as you keep trying to be the person I've seen you to be, the lying is all I'm angry about right now.

[kickbuttseatnuts]

[She doesn't know how to respond to a lot of that and mostly wrings her hands.]

I... I'm trying. Really. And-

[...she didn't. Actually. Do the polite and redeeming thing. She should do that.]

I know. And I'm sorry. I shouldn't have lied and especially not to you.

[astronomics]

It's... I know you're trying. And that's part of what I like about you.

I can't... say it's alright just yet, but... I'm glad you told me now rather than later. But no... no more lies, alright?